Hey 202,

As you know, we had been terribly rowdy during lessons, especially Ms Heng’s. We may think that we had been rowdy since Day 1 and that Ms Heng does not care at all. After all, she doesn’t even care if we pass or fail! But do you know that there are some people who want to learn, who wants to do well and excel, and that they want to build a future themselves? Of course we know there are such people, but are we being considerate? By keeping quiet and probably join them learning? I know that this has gone on for a long time, and that we should stand against this behavior from the very start. We all know that this would definitely affect us, of course in a negative manner. But yet, why do we still do it?

Ms Heng has given up on us not because she hates us or whatever shit. But is because we are too rowdy to be controlled and that she believes that we truly can’t be controlled. Her beliefs were reinforced by our ill-mannered and egocentric behavior. Now we criticize her teaching, and even claimed that she taught nothing! Do you think that is fair to her? Remember the first day we could not hear her at all because she was too soft? She sacrificed her time and energy on us by finding Ms Oh for the mike. This has shown us how much Ms Heng care for us. Ms Heng also uploaded notes on the SMB and Twitter for us. She has gone that far, trying her best to teach and what did we do to “thank” her? Talk to our friends and ignore her totally. That is a bloody good way to thank her. That is god damn bloody good of us.

Some of us probably hate Ms Heng a lot for her “inefficiency” and we know that that is not true anymore. Our “hatreds” are mainly unreasonable. For example, some of us hate Ms Ng for being strict with our deadline of homework. That is just a plain shitty excuse. Have we looked at ourselves, what we have done, before coming out with these nonsense? Did all of us hand in our work in time? And now we are angry with Mr Lee for scolding us many times. Isn’t that another crap reason?

What most of us probably think is to be quiet and cooperative with Ms Heng from now on and that people will learn well, and to throw away our unfair justifications of our teachers. But what is the point of forcing ourselves to keep quiet during her lesson and later be noisy at Ms Ng’s lesson, Mr Lee’s lesson or even Ms Oh’s lesson? We must change, not to pacify a teacher or our friends, but make the change for ourselves, for our own benefits. Then we might say that there is no point changing now. In the end, we all would split ways and go to different classes. And that after this week, there will be no more lesson except remedial. However, we must know that this change is not for this year! It is for our whole life, to listen and pay attention to the speaker! We may have to face Mr Lee’s scolding tomorrow, but why afraid? We are truly in the wrong. Even I admit that I did some regrettable actions during Ms Heng’s lesson. We, nevertheless, deserve the scolding. However bad you feel after the scolding, treat this as a turning point of our life, because we will change for the better.